Monday, June 28, 2010

Amid the Greens


Surrounded by green colossal hills, I sat on a rock of the Panorama Point in Matheran. As far as my senses allowed, all I could see was hills, valleys and fields, blithe fully wearing an endless green scarf, patterned with the most novel designs that might inspire the greatest painters and writers. All I could hear was tranquillising silence, a sound unparalleled, surpassing any earthly musical note. All I could smell was the tantalizing aroma of the blending earth, water and air, the fragrance of wet soil. All I could feel was a soothing gust, caressing my skin gently. If only I had wings to fly along with it, through the valley. The blue sky was adorned with patches of white and grey clouds, some of them swaying away with the wind, across the conclave of the gigantic hills, while the other resting on one of the green slopes, like tired travellers. Yonder was another cluster of clouds, pouring rain on a comparatively less formidable terrain. Now that… was a rare sight. Watching the pouring clouds from a higher altitude felt like… well I have no words for this. I am a rain-lover, but I have always been at the receiving end of the rain. This sight made me fall in love with it all over again.


The idyllic scenery entranced me. Even though I was out in open, it gave me privacy like I had never had before. I had ‘my moment’, a moment when I connected with the nature; a moment that rendered all other thoughts away but one that inadvertently appeared in my mind, ‘Ahambrahma Asmi’. In that moment, I was so connected with the surrounding life that it seemed like same energy flowed through all of us, me, the trees, the hills, the streams, the wind, and the clouds… all of us. It seemed as if everything had come to life and that they were all nothing but me. I heard my heartbeat reverberating in the whole valley. For a short while, I felt the presence of the Divine. It was truly a spiritually moment. I figured out why the saints of India escaped to the mountains for meditation. I wanted to spare a few minutes to meditate there, but the time constraints of our trip didn’t allow me to do that. We were a group of eight friends there, but to my surprise, the members of an otherwise chatty group disintegrated to find their own rock to sit in silence for some time. I am sure they found their moment too.


For all of us, who live in the chaotic conurbations, time passes by very fast and every moment leaves a noisy scar on our life; noise, of cell phone ringtones, keyboard taping, doorbells, relentless arguments, meetings, celebrations, traffic jams, television, iPods etc. And when we need some privacy, we go inside a four walled shell, which suffocates our inner self further. It might be of some help but I can bet it’s not as curative as an escape to the nature, which recharges our senses and gives us an ambience to introspect, thus renovates us. One such trip a month can prove to be therapeutic like nothing else.


How I wish I had means to retreat to this place anytime I wanted. But to earn those ‘means’, I realized that I will have to go back to my city-jungle and slog. So here I am, back on my office chair, sulking about the confined cubicle, laden with nostalgia of one of my best trips and trying to capture that amazing experience into this article, so that whenever I’d read it, I will be reminded of that awe-inspiring moment and the company of the wonderful gang which made this trip worthwhile.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Alu, Parantha and Amitabh Bachchan

Yes. It was a near perfect evening at my new address where I dared to cook for the first time. Though I enjoy cooking, but usually it takes a lot for heavy body like me to overcome the inertia of lethargy and step into the kitchen. I had slept the whole noon after a hectic house cleaning session that Saturday. I woke up at around five in the evening when I got a text from one of my friends, saying that they had cooked a full meal that day! I was like, ‘What the hell!!!’. Now, I had to cook. So, I tightened up my hair and woke up my flat mate to join me in the kitchen. Within 40 minutes, which includes scrupulous tasks like kneading the dough, we had prepared dry Alu ki Sabzi and Garam Garam Parantha. Just then, I remembered, that I had my friend’s pen drive which had the movie ‘Amar Akbar Anthony’. I thanked God for small mercies. We both set our plates and I played the movie. It was such a satisfying feeling to actually cook one whole meal for self. Not that I hadn’t done it ever before, but it was my first time since I had started living away from home. And with the Amitabh Bachchan movie playing along, what could have been a better weekend at home. Cheers to Alu, Parantha and AB.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Dream Again

Once again
I lie down
Sleepless in the night
Counting the pieces of my
Broken dream

Once again
I open
My little box of hope
To lock the
debris inside

Once again
I pray
For a slumber
To see that dream again
And again
And bring it to life
This time

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The Other Voice

Its funny how our emotions play with us. Yes, they do. Coz one thing is for sure that we don’t control them. Rather, they are the ones who govern us, more importantly our moods. They kind of embody a subtle form of our being who speaks the same way we do and can be heard only by us. They are like a constant background score of our conscious life. I don’t remember a single moment of my life where there was no on going commentary by my other self in my mind, either paraphrasing or narrating the on going events. Sometimes that other self might multiply. It can morph into those small devil and angel that appear at the side of one’s head in the cartoon movies. Both fighting and suggesting different ideas to the poor mortal human, who can’t help but listen to them. They appear just like that. Poof! Especially when you are contemplating some issue, which might be as small as choosing between coffee and tea or as big as considering two different carrier options. They just like an undetachable part of our existence. My dad says there’s only one way to control these noises, meditation. Meditation! I mean I’ve tried it once. But it becomes rather more difficult for me. These voices literally begin to chit-chat with each other, completely ignoring my presence! Who gives them such energy to go on and on. They don’t seem to be mortal to me. They simply remain an unknown, unnamed part of me. When I am hungry, they are hungrier, tempting me to take just anything edible thing that I see first. When I am bored, they are even more jaded, trying to pull me out of the lecture hall. When I am scrared, they are scared as hell. Constantly prompting me to check behind the curtains, beneath the bed.
But in the end, they are a constant companion. Atleast they don’t leave us alone like people do. They are with us through thick n thin. I do admit that I am grateful they don’t leave me feeling lonely at times I need someone the most. Though they might not always help in placating my worries or anything, but they do stick around. Thank you… me!!